For the next sitting in the copper chamber I arrived quite subdued.
During the night in the motel room, I had decided to try something which seemed to require some courage—to look into my body at the internal organs.
I had diagrammed those organs time and again back in college in my anatomy courses, and sketched them for doctors during autopsies to make a little extra money.
But the prospect of seeing my own organs was another matter. There is a certain fear attached to this.
LUCIDITY OF INTERNAL BODY ORGANS
At some level of consciousness we know these organs are mortal, that they will ultimately fail, and when they do we will be dead. How would I respond if it turned out I should see something quite dreadful about my OWN organs?
There is a certain insulation when objectively seeing the organs of others; most people, though, are squeamish about their own.
I never thought I was squeamish; but now found out that I was. So there was a certain reluctance to this decision.
None the less I reclined on the motel bed, pressed my lips firmly together.
When my hands again turned transparent I shifted my attention to the bio-body’s heart—to find it either encased in or radiating a soft golden light.
EXAMINING THE HEART VIA LUCIDITY
Because I like rich foods and good wine, I was worried, of course, that I’d see globs of cholesterol usually taken to mean approaching heart problems.
But in moving through this organ, magnifying its interior, I could see very little cholesterol. (One of the first things I did when I got back to New York was to ascertain my cholesterol count—with was considered “normal.”)
Strangely, I could hear the rushing of the blood, but not the heartbeat.
EXAMINING THE INTESTINES VIA LUCIDITY
Somewhat relieved, I “did” the stomach, liver, pancreas, etc., and, biting my teeth, the intestines. All of these seemed okay to me. But the interior walls of the lower colon seemed to be slimy and impacted with mucous and old waste which had hardened and not been excreted.
This had congealed into a rubbery hard substance and was producing a dull black aura.
Here, then, was a “dirty colon” which I had read about. I was later to see that this adverse condition is not unusual when I looked into other peoples’ intestines.
Indeed, just as I was preparing to write this chapter, the NEW YORK POST (20 July 1995) published a short article about a forthcoming Elvis Presley documentary entitled “Eating Elvis.” Presley’s eating habits were awesome and awful. The article quotes the medical examiner who performed the autopsy, who said that Presley’s colon was impacted with a clay-like substance which could have been the cause of his death. (I later undertook some rigorous colon cleansing methods.)
EXAMINING THE BRAIN VIA LUCIDITY
Having confronted the stuff in my colon, I dared to see into the brain. Here, seen with lucidity, is certainly a wonder of wonders. But how to describe it?
If the brain is to be thought of only as biological matter, then inside the skull a large part of the biological matters seemed to be some kind of water.
But if the brain is seen as the aura networks of lights and radiances, then the energy-brain extends out through the skull and interpenetrate the entire bio-body, envelope it, and extend at some distance from it.
In this sense, the brain is a “fountain” emitting sprays of light out from the top of the head in the ways magnets have been determined to do.
These then curve downward, like an ultra-fine mist or dew, cascading all around the body and then move back up into the body through, of all places, the soles of the feet.
The whole of this SPARKLES with a wild assortment of colors.
Associated with this are some darker-colored “bands,” which, in my way of expressing them, are “more heavy”
These, too, rise up out of the top of the skull, often to a height of three to five feet, and then turn downward.
They then encapsulate the body at about a distance of one to two feet on its exterior, and reenter the soles of the feet. They extend into the floor or ground usually about five feet.
I called these “magnetic bands”—but only because of the lack of a more precise term.
These slowly, very slowly, rotate around the bio-body either clockwise or counter-clockwise in different people, and occasionally change the direction of rotation as if some kind of a “polarity shift” takes place.
I really had no idea (and still don’t) about what they are. But on average, they do constitute an extended and roughly ovalesque shape—the only ovalesque shape I’ve ever managed to see regarding personal human auras.
There are never less than five bands, but some people have as many as ten—especially if they are sexually “complicated” as we will see.
Their main source or conduit, however, does not appear to be the brain. They merge in the esophagus and seem to flow through it.
EXAMINING THE SPINE VIA LUCIDITY
From the spine emerges a complex network, usually dark pink in color, which extends through and around the entire body from the skin all the way into each and every internal organ. This network seems to culminate in the nails of the toes and fingers, and the hair follicles, all of which then emit rays of pink and bluish light (as seen, for example, by von Reichenbach’s sensitives.)
In what I later was told by doctors to be long-term, emotionally depressed people, this network has lost its luster and has darkened. In those taking sedatives or depressants, this particular network seems to have weakened, and in some cases has vanished altogether.
EXAMINING UNKNOWN NETWORKS VIA LUCIDITY
However, most visible are the “networks” of which there are several, while it seems none of them are really known to anatomically exist.
Indeed, the entire bio-psychic organism (a term which by now I am obliged to utilize,) seems to be densely composed of networks of all kinds and which entangle each other.
If these nets are not seen magnified, they altogether can be seen as mists of lights whose combined radiance extends to about a foot or more outside of the bio-body proper.
In this sense, their combined luminosity can look like an oval aura. But when magnified, in fact they are not oval, since all of them (or at least all that I’ve managed to see) more or less follow the contours of the bio-body from the surface of the skin inward and outward.
The skeleton has its own special net, which, to me, seems very strongly and heavily “magnetic” in nature. Any damage to this particular network can easily result in some form of unconsciousness.
What is distinctly emitted from the bio-body, however, are rays, beams, and what I call “bubbles” of energy.
The bubbles can be exceedingly tiny or quite large—and they are like spores or globules of light of many different colors, intensities, and densities.
All of the rays, beams and bubbles can project or drift far afield, and all of them can quite easily be absorbed and disappear into the auras of others. The processes of absorption can take place in fractions of seconds or more slowly.
The various kinds of rays and beams can extend for quite some astonishing distance from the bio-body as we shall see ahead. All of this equates to “medical clairvoyance” which has already been mentioned.
Particularly noticeable are those rays and beams having to do with sexual energies, and the energies of love, hate, desire, and the passions.
Indeed, when impacting into the fields of others, there is a kind of splash of energies, as if a rock hitting water. All of these can quickly be “absorbed” into the energy fields of others.
And so for the first time I really came to understand that those kinds of rays and beams have tangible “substance.”
And it all became very real to me, especially when after the copper room session, I told Dr. Green and his associates “Well, I’ve seen my internal organs.”
They were, of course, suitably awed. But no one asked what I had seen regarding my own organs. Rather they all wanted to know what I could see regarding THEIR organs.
So happily at first, I began to look at a variety of internal organs. For example, one of those persons had a liver which looked whitish and sort of “water-logged,” and which was considerably different from all the other livers.
I had no idea at all of the possible meanings of this, and was hesitant to tell the person about his liver.
And although I didn’t realize it at the time, this kind of seeing into others was an innocent prelude of more vastly complicated things to come. I was shortly to encounter a vast number of things about auras and organs which were completely incomprehensible mysteries to me, factors which I could NOT find mentioned in books.
MY VERY OWN COPPER MIRROR
Even before the working sessions in Topeka drew to a close, I was completely “sold” on the copper mirror device of the Mahatmas. And I wanted my own personal copper mirror.
I couldn’t, of course, construct the elegant, four-walled room at the Menninger Clinic. But I could easily build the device described in the Mahatma Letter to A. P. Sinnett.
I asked Dr. Green and Wendell Spencer, the project’s biomedical technician, to build an exact replica of their magnet, which had to be constructed because magnet manufacturers no longer build them.
Back in New York I went to a sheet metal supplier and became the proud owner of an 8-foot by 3-foot sheet of copper. This was fixed to a large piece of plywood. After the direction of true magnetic north in New York had been determined by compass, the copper sheet was suspended in a small room so that I could sit facing it to the true north.
The magnet, reproduced exactly as the one at the Volunteer Controls Program, duly arrived about two months later, together with a bill for $210.
I suspended it over my head, sat down in the chair which was lifted up on four glass blocks, and was in business. After which, my entire world began to unravel. There were three reasons for this.
The first was that the LUCIDITY which was so easy to turn on, turned out to be not so easy to turn off.
The second was that the ratio between (1) what I thought I could understand, and (2) what I did not understand AT ALL dramatically increased in favor of the latter.
The third reason was that it shortly transpired that I didn’t need the magnet or the copper sheet to turn on the LUCIDITY.
Indeed, it was soon turned on all of the time, twenty-four hours a day, even in my dreams, and nothing I could do seemed to either turn it off or even calm it down.
I was living in a realm of lights, rays, beams, bubbles, intermixing auras, traveling “thunderbolts” of wayward energies.
It got so bad that I was seeing the luminosities around door handles and the materials of buildings, the lights emanating from my computer screen, the green and purple emanations of the asphalt streets, and the in-sucking of energies by plastics, and on and on beyond imagination.
So distorting did all of this become that I had to step from the curbs very carefully, not being quite sure where the cement actually ended and where a “luminosity” began. The lucidity of the Mahatmas was getting to be too much!